ENOUGH! I AM TAKING CONTROL! I AM HELPING MY KID! I AM RAISING MY CHILD! I AM THE SPECIALIST!
July 6, 2007
1. an expert who is devoted to one occupation or branch of learning
—Synonyms 1. connoisseur, master. 2. experienced, proficient, dexterous.
1.A person with a high degree of skill in or knowledge of a certain subject.
2.The highest grade that can be achieved in marksmanship.
3.A person who has achieved this grade
These experts, specialists, bullshitters make me sick. I come across you guys on a daily basis and TODAY is the day I tell you all I am done with you and you can all kiss my ass. It is so easy for you to throw that title around and with so much confidence. Most of you (ALL OF the ones I’ve had to deal with) have no children with AUTISM, hell you don’t have kids period. I decided today that my son will not be your guinea pig, that I don’t have to put up with you putting me, my family and other families down for not following the things that you learned in a book or that a professor told you. That I don’t have to put up with these feelings of inadequacy that I have allowed you to instill in me. You are all kinds of booksmart which is not smart at all. Anyone and I mean anyone can do what you do if they wanted to. Yes I am putting your title down, putting you down for your arrogance too. You learned what Autism was from a book. Maybe you studied some children like lab rats for a few hours and you think you can come and tell me about how “as a professional, as a specialist”, whatever! I’ve had you people in my home for up to 40 hours a week dictating our every move, running my house, being more of a disturbance than anything really. I’ve seen how you guys put in the hours because it is “your job” and as you leave I am only left with discouragement, with the feeling that all you care about is the $$ you are making because of the AUTISM diagnosis. You go home and Autism is over for you… I don’t get that break. Think about it… you get to do things for a few hours in my home like a robot and they DON’T WORK and you expect for me and my family to put everything aside to do like a robot what you do and get paid for? You get to dictate what is going to consume all of our lives in our home. That doesn’t work… Autism or not as I’ve always said… a child is a child and I will not treat him like he is not even human… in other words LIKE YOU DO. SCREW YOU PSEUDO INTELLECTUALS AND ONCE AGAIN KISS MY ASS!!! Look I am not saying I know what it is like to be Autistic or that I am the know it all on the topic but I can tell anyone what it is like to live with it. 24/7! I can tell you that I can teach my son, my way and that I WILL succeed. I will do so because I love him, because I am realistic, because I look at him as an individual with feelings, an individual period! I will succeed because unlike your limited studies… my studies, my experience is for a lifetime. I will learn from him what you can’t teach me, what I can’t learn from the greatest book, from any book. I will continue my education and further it more than any professor that teaches the “subject”. For I live the “subject”, I love the “subject”, I am the “subject”.
I will always welcome your suggestions, I will welcome anyone’s suggestions but I will not welcome your disrespect and lack of “expertise”. I am the specialist and you… are my assistant. Got it?
Oh and one more thing before I leave…
I would love to meet the model citizens you will have for children. I would love you apply your “expertise” on your “typical” children as I am sure they will not only be easier to train like robots but to make of them what you try to make of other parents children. I would also love to see you study your own kids like your little lab rats. Maybe then… we can compare notes. HA!